What Holds, What Reaches

 What Holds, What Reaches

By: LaRae Pynas



I come from a yard where the oak
outlived three houses and one marriage,
its roots threading the dark like a rumor
no storm could quite uproot.

My mother’s voice is in that soil—
soft orders, grocery lists, the scrape
of her laughter against a hard day.
My father’s silence is there too,
heavy as wet clay,
teaching me how not to speak
and why I should.

These are the roots:
hands that worked past aching,
names spoken over kitchen sinks,
photos in shoeboxes that smell
of dust and lemon oil,
the stubborn, ordinary faith
that tomorrow means “try again.”

But I have always watched the branches.
How they spend themselves on sky,
how they risk the fall for one more inch of light.
Every book I’ve dog-eared,
every ticket stub in my drawer,
each late-night sentence I almost deleted—
they are twigs, thin but insistent,
leaning toward a world that has not yet
learned my name.

Some days the roots grip my ankles,
whisper stay, be grateful, be small.
Some days the branches tug my shoulders,
saying go, be loud, be more.

I have learned to stand where they meet:
feet deep in the old stories,
crown full of new leaves,
not choosing between past and possible
but letting one feed the other—

So that what holds me
is also what lifts me,
and what I reach for
keeps teaching me how to remain.

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